It's A New Year

Well, here we go. It's a new year and the last ended the same as this one started, I didn't see either one of them. I have at some point failed miserably with the the oldest. The youngest and I are still close and able to talk to each other. I think J just thinks I'm and idiot. She has no idea of the things ahead for her. She won't put forth the effort to strive for it either. She says she wants help but won't take any because it's not the kind she wants. She wants respect but will not give any and takes full advantage of her mom. She is the prodigal. Ash is the oldest and I am the father. Differences; Ash will rejoice when J comes home. I will not be as good as the father in the story. I vow to do my best though. I will never again say to her " I told you so". She is my daughter, and love her with all I am. She as owned me since the day she was born. I will do for her now the same as before but now I can see where I got in the way of her growing up. Ash has been blessed in seeing the errors of J's ways and listens to what is said to her. J is stronger than Ash but both have weakness and strength of their own making. I just need J to find the road home. She's lost in the forest and crumbs have been eaten. I'm helpless in helping her. I can only call out to her and hope she hears. This will be the year of her return. I just know it.  TTP